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Name: Katye
Country: United States
State: Missouri
Gender: Female
Interests: hmmm...God, music,The Bridge ministries, reading,living life to it's fullest, trying new things, painting, writing,coffee and espresso, healthy cooking, theology.
Occupation: Employee of the bridge, chaos
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
2/9/2004
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| Today I mourn for those who have lost their virginity so young. I mourn for their pure and beautiful souls which have been tainted by the lust of a boy who does not love them or appreciate how beautiful they are. I cry for those who are pregnant at an age when they already feel so alone. I pray for those girls and for the beautiful babies laying in their wombs that they may have a life of blessings. I am grateful for the girls who chose to give life instead of take it. The girls who made a choice that is more brave than the strongest warriors who have battled throughout the world over centuries. Today I feel a sick feeling in my stomach as another girl tells the story of her active sex life at 14. I mourn because I have been given the gift of sex the way God always intended it from the beginning of time. Inside the promise that the next morning and the morning after that and on and on until I die that man is going to be lying next to me. He will hold me when I'm sad or lonely, he will promise me his love to me and me alone, and at the end of the day I know he never gave himself to anyone but me. I mourn because so many girls will never recieve the chance to experience sex the way God intended. Yet, I lay in hope for the young girls I have met since i've been married, in hope that one day they too will experience what I have experienced.
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| I'm back on the road again and the last few days I have had some exciting adventures. I went to the W. Virginia state capitol snuck into the senates hall and took pictures until they realized it and closed the doors...i do have the pictures still though. :) We ran into a very large snapping turtle i took some pictures of him. We went to a scenic overlook with a huge gorge and train tracks about a 1,000 feet down. We also found out by some old ladies that where we were was the place where everyone commits suicide around there. Yikes! We went into a natural tunnel covered with spider webs....creepy. Good times on the road. I'll tell you of more adventures later.
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| I have decided to quit my job. I has probably been the hardest decision of my entire life. For anyone who has ever worked in ministry you might find that coming is not as easy as leaving. There are so many thing the float at swirl in your mind. Questions like is this really where God wants me to be? Is this the way ministry should be? What if they really need me? Maybe things will change and I must only be patient? I have questioned my job at the bridge almost from the first week I have been there. It is hard because there are doubts that come into your mind and then you think you must just be going through some significant trials and that things will change along with your outlook in time. Then it all comes down to the first passion God placed in your heart. The thing that you have been longing to achieve since the moment he pressed it upon you. I had forgotten about the passion the Lord placed on my heart only a year and a half ago. Many may think this passion is one which resides in any person who is married. Yet, my ministry is unique. The Lord told me that Matthew John Anderson would be my passion and my ministry. I was to help him do the amazing things the Lord had for him. The testing I had faced was not whether or not to leave my job. It was would I be faithful to the ministry God called me to. I have failed. I have failed because I have spent more time and energy working at my job then I have spent on my husband. In fact, I see matthew less then 20 hours in a week. I was so blinded by all of it until the other night. When I layed next to him after spending an entire night together and I started sobbing because I realized how much I had missed him. We had been having problems lately and I realized it was my fault because I have neglected him. Matthew is the most important thing in my life and therefore all of the questions I had been asking myself about staying or leaving seemed ridiculous when the real reason I wasn't happy was because it is not my ministry. My ministry is to my husband before anything else.
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| Being married is like eating cupcakes with pink frosting and little pink dotted confetti candy. It is delicious and life is always tasteful.
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| I have just had an adventure along a walking trail near the recreational center in Franklin. I have been drugged by spider looking insects which are not spiders at all but even worse flying devil spiders which have bit me quite a few times...unnecessarily might I add. My head feels a little bit sluggish. I am itchy all over and wish I could wash the itchiness off of my skin. I realized today that nature is not my friend. Nature is the little ecosystems insects and other animals, but mostly insects have created because humans took their homes and so now they are cramped in their little ecosystems and the second you step into their boundaries the little devils get revenge for everything you have done to them. I would prefer to stay in my own little ecosystem so no one gets hurt.( I squashed and swatted a few of them) As for now I will indulge in hot water soothing my wounds. | | |
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